Number 29

I woke up this morning today thinking 2 things. One of them was how I seem to always let people get me down. As in disappoint me. I remember a few years ago when I girl who I was crazy about told me "that's what happens when you put me up on a pedestal, I am bound to disappoint you." At the time, I was like, "I don't do that." But I think subconsioucly I did and in someways I still do.

I do believe that you should treat people how you want to be treated, but sometimes, when you aren't being treated the way you think you should deserve being treated, it can kind of put a downer on how you see things.

Anyway, my mobile phone is being really weird as anytime someone texts me, I get the same message over the next few days about 10 times. So, I am thinking I might get a new mobile phone soon and when I do, use it as an excuse to text poeple my new number and make the effort with them, however, just storing people on my new phone who I think should deserve to go on it. I'm not going to have room for people I hardly ever speak to, that I haven't seen for ages or any exes. No point at all.

I was looking through my phone the other day thinking "why have I still got their number" to about 30 people in my phonebook. Doing number 29 on my list would mean I would have to talk to them when I probably really don't want to and am wondering why on earth did I bother with certain of these people in the first place??

So when I do number 29, I will be not putting half of these people in my new phone when I eventually get it and therefore be making an effort with only the people I want to make an effort with.