Recently, I have been quite ill. I went to the doctors for the first time in over 3 years. I didn't eat or sleep for 4 days straight. the doctor said I "was like the walking dead". Thanks Doc.
Anyway, I have realised that recently, my body has been fucked and my mind had been on another part of the universe, completely lost. Upon this realisation, I have come to the conclusion that I am going to have to carry on with this list whilst I am 30 rather than just trying to get all the stuff done before 30 (if I get there). It is simply not going to happen otherwise.
I know the whole point of the list was to do all the things before the shitness of me being 30 was reached. But in a way, it'll give me some kind of point in life if I have the list that hasn't yet been done and look forward to doing them.
The last thing I am going to do is keep postponing my list. Back in June, I wasn't able to handle the fact that I haven't achieved much in life. I haven't done enough to make a difference. I am probably miserable for these reasons. I didn't think many things through and wasn't aware at the time that even though everything on the list is doable, some things, I am just not ready to do right now.
So keep reading and I will keep you posted throughout my time of being 29 AND 30.
