Wow-it's been nearly 4 months since I posted on here. Such was the shitness of turning 30, I guess I must have just subconsciously tried to forget about all of this. You know, just in case someone says something like:-
"Wait a minute, wasn't this blog supposed to be a list of things to do BEFORE you're 30?? Now you're 30 and a 3rd of the way to being 31 (FUCK) and you're nowhere near completing what you said you were going to do BEFORE you turned 30. Isn't that a bit fucked up??"
Yes.
So here I am now over 100 miles from home working in a hotel in Hull and being a trainee manager. The place is an absolute shit hole and I am part of a new management team that is here to try and make the hotel better. The other 2 members of the management team aren't even here yet and I will be the only one who actually lives at the hotel. The owners of the hotel are Doctors-husband and wife and have no idea how to run a hotel. Just like I wouldn't know how to do spinal surgery. They seem like they are quite fresh off the boat. The main Doc is never here as he is busy in surgeries in Manchester etc and the wife is ALWAYS here. She does not know how to communicate with people. How do I tell her that we are in a hotel and not in a pan masala shop in Delhi? How do I tell her that her personal hygiene is absolutely disgusting?
Hull doesn't really have anything to offer me (Hull rhymes with Dull). It has a nice town centre but nowhere to really socialise. It was strange as I got offered a job close to my home at the same time as when I got offered this job. Why didn't I choose the one closer to home? Because I wanted to run away!
Not that I actually physically did any running at all. I actually got a lift here from a friend. What I mean is that my life wasn't going anywhere:-
http://muksblogaboutstuff.blogspot.co.uk/2012/06/it-might-be-strange-question-to-ask.html
So I thought "Well why not give this a go. Leave your friends behind. Leave your home, your life and your chances of those ladies who really don't give a shit about you but 'maybe one day they will' crap behind."
This is it. A fresh start and things surely HAVE to get better. I can do more of my list. Slowly but surely. Will I finally find happiness?? Will I find inner peace?? Will I become an absolute inspiration to other people??
No.
So why is this? Instead of ticking off the things one by one that I originally set out to do, this blog has become more of a self analytical, brain picking, soul searching wonderment of what I have to do to actually feel at ease.
